Sunday, November 24, 2024

Tree

The Tree

The house was empty, except for the Christmas tree.

Though I was still four months shy of my third birthday, I remember it clearly. It is the first Christmas I can recall, the Christmas we spent in the tourist cottages beneath the Australian pines, our little house not quite ready yet.

But Dad set up a tree in the bare living room, placed our presents beneath it, and we all went over on Christmas morning to open them. I remember a toy truck. Or was it a fire engine? I pushed it all over the empty rooms, across the terrazzo floors. I also remember being loathe to pick it up because I wasn't sure it was for me.

I was new to Christmas, after all. It's the first gift I remember receiving at any time. My parents assured me it was mine and an older sibling was not going to take it from me.

We had left Ohio a couple months earlier, just as winter was moving in. I do have a few memories of our home in the north and, in particular, everyone getting into the car on a cold day to start a trip. Was there snow or is that a detail my imagination added? I assume it was the family setting out for Florida.

Florida—that's where the memories truly begin, with a Christmas tree and an empty house.

Stephen Brooke ©2012

appeared in the “Retellings” collection

The Descent of Dragons

The Descent of Dragons

a Greenmeadows story by Stephen Brooke


“Before man, was the race of dragons. Not formed were they, like men, in the image of the gods, nor were their minds like those of men.

“In those days—”

“Just how long ago was this?”

Ransax looked up from his volume, his annoyance obvious—to those who knew dragons. “Millions of years, I’m sure.”

“Millions?” objected Sir Grissol. “Surely the world hasn’t been around that long!” He noted his scaly friend’s expression and decided to drop the subject. “Well, go on.”

“In those days,” continued Ransax, settling down again to his reading, “only wild beasts roamed the earth. And the gods said, Let us raise up the beasts, so they might know us.”

“You say this is a holy text, Randy?” asked the old knight. “I always thought you dragons were a rather, well, skeptical bunch.”

“Indeed,” replied the dragon. “That does not mean we haven’t our traditions. Though,” he added, with a slight, steamy chuckle, “we may not take them quite so literally as humans do.”

“Hmmph. I do believe that might have been intended as an insult.”

“You are what you are.” Ransax shrugged, his wings stirring up a faint breeze in the study. Dust wafted from atop the high, disorderly stacks of books.

“Our holy texts are repositories of dragon wisdom. And,” he added, “often pretty good stories. We dragons do love stories.”

Grissol Greenmeadows gave him a knowing smile. “This is one human who has learned not to take your stories quite so literally. I realize you like to, um, embellish.”

“Perhaps, a smidgen,” admitted Ransax. “But back to the Draconotheca.

“Many were the creatures they shaped, creatures of the air and of the sea and of the earth. Then of the stock of the weasel and badger, creatures that dwell in the earth, fierce, cunning, they created the dragons.”

“So you’re actually a—a weasel?” gasped the knight. “Everyone thinks you’re reptiles!”

“And we usually do not attempt to disabuse them of the notion. Or we eat them before the subject comes up. But after all, Greenmeadows, do I truly seem very lizard-like? I’m not exactly cold-blooded, after all!”

“Well, I had wondered about the ears,” admitted Sir Grissol. “Never seen a snake with ears.”

Ransax pricked his large fox-like ears. “The better to hear you with, my friend.”

Sir Grissol chuckled. “That’s a good line. Someone should use it in a story.”

“I suppose so. Anyway, your folk tend to confuse us with the wyverns, who are reptiles. To our eyes we seem nothing alike but then you humans all look much the same to us. Incidentally,” added Ransax, “the gods formed your race of the apes. It is rather obvious to my people that they didn’t raise you very far.”

“At least we left our trees,” huffed Grissol. “You still live in a hole in the ground.”

“Ha, quite true, my friend, quite true. I admittedly can’t see you climbing a tree.”

Grissol, for a moment, recalled a much younger version of himself doing just that. Ah, the apples that grew in his neighbor’s orchard! And his neighbor’s daughter who might be found there as well—hmm, no need to mention any of that to this dragon. “So, you were raised up from weasels and we can claim the monkeys as our ancestors. Did the gods mess about with any other animals?”

“There is something about that in here,” replied Ransax, leafing through his tome. “Not much though, as I remember. This book concentrates on my own people.” He stopped and peered at a page. “Ah, yes. There were eagles. Or maybe hawks? It’s a bit unclear. And the dolphins, of course. In other words,” said the dragon, looking at his companion over the top of the out-sized book, “one intelligent race for each of the four elements.”

“Dragons are fire, right?”

“No. Earth. You sun-loving humans are the People of the Fire.”

“I suppose that makes sense,” admitted the elderly knight. With a chuckle, he added, “I could be pretty hotheaded as a youth.”

Ransax was still poring over his text. “Yes, eagles. It makes sense that they would have to be fairly large to be more than bird-brains.” He shut the Draconotheca and placed it atop a tall stack of books. “I shall have to sort these out someday,” he mused. “Speaking of descending, I just received some new barrels of Saragossan wine. What say we go down to the cellar and sample it?”

“I thought this was a cellar,” said Grissol. It was downstairs from the living quarters, wasn’t it?

“I have cellars below cellars below cellars here, my friend,” claimed the dragon. “After all,” he added, with a wink, “I have to hide my treasure somewhere.”

Grissol Greenmeadows snorted. “I keep hearing of this treasure but I’ve never seen any of it.” He rose from the overstuffed chair and stretched. “But I’ll settle for seeing some of your wine right now.”

“Bring along a lamp, will you? I know you humans don’t see that well in the dark.”

Lord Ransax led the way, down a dim hallway and then a stair. “We dragons tend to be secretive about our hordes. In the blood, you know?” he told the knight, with a slightly embarrassed air. “I’ll admit I sometimes go down and sleep on it. It’s a bad habit but it is something my people do.”

“Sounds deucedly uncomfortable to me,” opined Sir Grissol. “And cold.”

“Dragon bodies tend to heat up any space they occupy rather quickly,” replied his host. “Lying on a cool pile of gold can actually be quite refreshing. Ah, here we are.” He pushed open a heavy oaken door. “Hmm, I thought I locked that after the delivery.”

Stacks of barrels and racks of bottles lined the walls of the chamber. It was a well-stocked wine cellar indeed and the knight felt a twinge of envy when he thought of his own few small casks of port.

“The new stuff is over here.” Ransax shook his head. “That barrel shouldn’t be on its end. Monsieur Biber’s delivery men know better than that.”

“Biber, eh? I can’t afford to deal with him.” Grissol ambled over to the barrel, marked ‘M. Biber,’ meaning to put it onto its side—and perhaps sample it. It tipped over readily on its own. The loose lid fell off and rolled across the stone floor. “I say, this one is already drained!”

Ransax looked into the empty keg and sniffed suspiciously. “There was a human in this barrel.” His long nose wrinkled. “Or I think it was a human. Slightly odd scent to it.”

“An intruder?” asked Grissol. “Ah! Your treasure!”

The dragon immediately turned and started for the doorway. “Follow me,” came his curt order. To the right and down stairs hewn from the stone they hurried, Sir Grissol huffing at the exertion of keeping up with the dragon. He had never seen this part of his friend’s lair, nor even knew it existed.

Nor had he ever seen the dragon so focused. “I can still catch the scent,” growled Ransax. “Definitely headed for my treasure chamber. Watch your head.”

The rough rocky tunnel was too dark for Grissol to see any ceiling. Not by the light of the little oil lamp he carried. He reached upward and couldn’t touch it. More of a concern for the dragon, maybe. Ransax halted and looked back at his companion.

“He’s seen it now, and knows the way. I suppose I should eat him.” He gave Grissol a sidelong look. “You would have to go all knightly on me, wouldn’t you?”

“Afraid so, old boy. Can’t have you eating people in my neighborhood.”

“Well, here we are.” There was no door, only a hole in the rock. This was all natural cave down here, Grissol suspected. He held high his light.

With a great foghorn of a bellow, Ransax sprang into the chamber, only to stop short.

“Why that’s no man!” exclaimed Sir Grissol. Before them stood a somewhat diminutive dragon. Diminutive beside the impressive Lord Ransax, that is, who approached a ton and a half in weight. Other dragons, naturally, could recognize that Ransax was fat and old, but to human eyes he was simply very large.

This dragon scaled at maybe a third of that and was several feet shorter. “Draubax?”

It hung its head and murmured, “Hi, Grandpa.”

“So you were in that barrel. And in human form?”

“Yes, sir,” admitted the young worm.

Grissol knew dragons could do this and had seen Ransax as a rather disreputable-looking fat old man on occasion, but had never been there for the actual changing of form. He wondered briefly whether the dragon was just as weighty when it was human. That would have made for a decidedly heavy barrel!

“I sneaked into the winery and hid,” continued Draubax. “I—I wanted to see your treasure! I’ll have a pile like this someday!”

“Ha, you’d probably like to steal mine, boy!” Ransax thundered.

The young dragon cringed. “No, sir, no! I wouldn’t think of it.”

“Don’t be silly,” his grandfather told him. “Of course you would. You’re supposed to! That’s what we dragons do.”

Grissol Greenmeadows, meanwhile, was quietly surveying the glittering heap of treasure. “As untidy as the rest of your place, Randy,” he stated.

“I know exactly where every coin is,” came the reply. “And if any are missing—” Ransax gave his grandson an exaggeratedly menacing look, before whispering to Grissol, “Were that another dragon he would not leave here alive. But Draubax is family. From one of my daughter’s litters.”

“I know where it is also, now,” observed the knight.

“That doesn’t worry me. The butler knows his way down here too. I trust him to be discreet. I tend to be secretive with humans just on general principle and with dragons on long experience.”

He turned back to the other dragon. “It is bad enough, young fellow, that you know about my treasure now. What is worse, I am short a butt of wine!”

“It was only a puncheon,” Grissol observed.

“Well, still quite a lot of wine,” fumed Ransax. “Wine I paid for!” He regarded the young dragon for some time, apparently pondering. “So what do I do with you? Lock you up down here?”

“With the hoard? He might enjoy that.”

The great dragon started to snicker. It grew into guffaws. “Indeed he would! Well, come along upstairs, boy, and we’ll think about this.”

Draubax quietly followed them back to the library. There, his grandfather suddenly demanded, “Show me your human shape!”

The young dragon eyed Grissol. “In front of him?”

“Think of him as family. Your dear old Uncle Grissol.”

Said uncle harumphed rather loudly. Draubax simply shrugged and slowly began to change, growing smaller, bat-like wings becoming arms, tail and nose shortening. It took a few minutes before a chubby teenage boy, fairly normal aside from his stub of a tail, stood before them.

Ransax looked him over. “Very well. Until I tell you otherwise, you will remain in that form, my boy.” His voice became a couple tones lower and decidedly more menacing. “And you’d better behave or I’ll cut off your tail!”

The lad gasped. In a whispered aside—one the dragon-boy could undoubtedly hear—Ransax told his friend, “He wouldn’t be able to return to his dragon form till it grew back. In a decade or two. It’s sort of our connection to our other self.

“Greeves,” he called. “Come in here, will you?”

The butler entered at once. He gave the naked boy but the slightest of glances. “Sir?”

“The lad here will be staying with us a while. Fix him up with a room, will you? And see if you can find him some clothes.” He turned back to his grandson. “Hmm, you should have a human name, shouldn’t you? Ever use one?”

“No, sir.” Draubax might have seemed offended were he not already so cowed.

“How about Drab?” suggested Grissol Greenmeadows.

“Splendid! Drab you are.”

“Do I have a say?” asked the newly-named Drab.

“Absolutely not. Now run along and do what Greeves tells you.”

“That was interesting,” commented Grissol, once the two had departed. “Always wondered about how you changed. Ha, I guess I still do!”

“Most understandable, Greenmeadows. You see, we don’t change in quite the sense you’re probably thinking. We keep our alternate forms in, um, what you might call another world, and switch them out. What looks like a transformation is really one body going away and another coming.

“Hmm. That actually makes a sort of sense.”

“Don’t I always make sense?” inquired Ransax.

Grissol ignored the question. “Other worlds, eh? I say, do werewolves do the same sort of trick?”

“They do, indeed, except in their case the wolf demon already existed in another world and became entangled with a mortal human.”

“Oh! Hmm, could you cut off their tails to cure them?”

“Doesn’t work quite the same way, I’m afraid. Now what am I going to do with that dragonling? I can’t let him go spreading stories about my horde or how he tricked me. And I don’t much want him living with me, family or not.”

“Your daughter’s boy, you say? Does this mean you had a wife at some point?”

“I still do. We mate for life but can not stand to live with our mates for very long. So we visit from time to time. During the mating season, of course, but also we sometimes simply miss each other and our families.” His sigh might have suggested he missed that family right then. Or it might have meant something else entirely. “I should probably let them know where Draubax is.”

“Drab, you mean.”

“Drab, indeed. It can wait. Annex should keep a better eye on her boy but I remember well how rebellious young dragons are at that age. That’s why a fair number don’t get past that age.”

Sir Grissol had a feeling Draubax might not if he spent much time in the cave of his grandfather. “How about letting him come and stay with me a few days? Get him out of your hair, so to speak. Or scales.”

Ransax gave him a most skeptical look. “Are you sure of that?”

“How much trouble could he be?” At once he told himself it was a stupid question. Teenage boys, whether human or dragon, were, well, teenage boys. “I’ll make him my esquire.”

“That’s rather impetuous. But so be it.”

“If young Drab is willing,” Grissol added.

“Whether he is or not,” came the dragon’s reply. “Greeves! Get that boy in here!”

An hour later, the unwilling Drab walked beside Grissol, who led his horse. He had found the dragon-boy had no idea of how to ride, nor how to do much of anything human. Rarely had Drab been beyond the mountains and the company of other dragons. Greeves had found him a kilt and blouse, both at least three sizes too large, and a straw hat for his big round head. The hair on that head was thick and black. The face below it was sullen.

But he was beginning to take interest in the things they passed, despite himself. Women, in particular. They continued, neither in any hurry, to the River Acerola, the border between Pitanga and Carambola, and the wooden toll bridge spanning it.

“So who be this?” asked the man at the turn-pike, giving the boy a friendly but curious look. Strangers were far from common. Moreover, the lad would be something to gossip about later at the tavern.

“My new esquire, Master Drab. I say, does he get the children’s rate?”

The soldier shook his head. “Too big. That’ll be tuppence for the both of you and a farthing for Battercap. Not making old Batter carry you today, eh? I reckon she appreciates that.”

There might have been a veiled comment on the knight’s ample midsection in that but he chose to ignore it and led boy and horse across. Stepping onto solid ground, he told Drab, “We’re in the kingdom where I live now. It’s not far to my keep.”

“Then we’re not in Grandfather’s country anymore? What’s it called?”

“Pitanga. But you’re definitely not beyond his reach.” He noted the sobering effect that had and went on. “You may be ignorant of most things knightly—or even human—but I think you are an enterprising lad. The way you got into your grandfather’s cave is evidence of that!”

For the first time, Grissol saw a smile on the boy’s face. “It was a pretty good trick, wasn’t it?”

“It would have been if you’d thought it through and had a way to leave his cave.”

“With his treasure!” Drab beamed at that thought.

Grissol didn’t think much of it. An irate Ransax would not make a good neighbor. Drab was looking at women again. Girls this time. From the corner of his eye, he watched a pair pass them on the path.

“I’ve never seen a girl up close before,” he said, perhaps a bit wistfully. “I wonder how they look without their clothes.”

“You’re not the first.” Apparently, along with a human form went a human nature and a human interest in the opposite sex. “You know, they were looking at you too.”

“They were?” He might have puffed out his chest just a bit.

“They were. I would recommend you not show them your tail, however. Here’s my place. Greenmeadows Manor.”

Drab politely avoided being critical of the little manor house. “I’ll, um, live here? For a while?”

“If you wish. There’s really nothing to stop you from changing back into a dragon and flying away, is there? I mean, Ransax might be peeved at your disobedience but he wouldn’t go after you.”

“And cut off my tail?” The boy smirked. “I don’t think so. It might be best to keep Grandpa happy though. For a while, as I said. Are there girls here?”

“There’s a whole kingdom full of them.”

“Good,” said Grissol’s new esquire, and followed him in.

appears in Lands Far Away 2021

Surf

Surf

a Ted Carrol story by by Stephen Brooke ©2019


A big set steamed toward me. If I paddled hard, I could make it over the first wave—barely. No chance on those following, those dark, steep walls rising from the ocean. Foam feathered already along their crests. I might duck-dive one or two of them successfully but not all; inevitably, I would be dragged into the impact zone. One choice only: I must catch that leading swell and ride it safely in.

It rushed forward, a locomotive pulling a long train of cars. Muscles already at their limit, arms aching, I pivoted, poised for the one last burst that would launch me down its face. Down into that blue-green canyon, down I would plunge, make a long careful turn and find the safety of the shoulder.

Not that I thought any of this; I was all adrenaline and instinct, fear and exhilaration. This was why I was out here. At times, it seemed like this was why I was alive.

What went wrong? I don’t know. Maybe the wave was too steep and my fin couldn’t hold; perhaps a gust of wind lifted the nose of my board. In an instant, I changed from a man in control to one in danger, from surfer to diver, taking a very different plunge.

Depth was what I needed, away from the impact of liquid tons, away from the board attached to my ankle by an elastic leash. That fifteen pound spear could become an all too deadly missile when launched with the force of a breaking wave. Oddly, though, I did not feel its tug as I struggled beneath the churning water, holding a quickly gasped breath.

At least the wipeout hadn’t been too bad. I could retrieve my board and ride in prone on the whitewater from the next swell. Surfacing, I felt the truth impact me like another breaking wave—my leash was broken, my board was gone.

The shore seemed distant now. No one near me. I was on my own, with wave after giant wave stacked up to the horizon. Here came the next one; I gulped a breath and dove.

It hit hard. I swam deep, but not deep enough for I went tumbling, rag-doll-in-the-washing-machine tumbling. How long? Too long is the only measurement available. I surfaced, coughing saltwater.

Maybe, I thought, I can body surf the next one in partway. If I tried and missed, I would be completely at its mercy; if I headed for bottom, I could avoid the worst of the impact. The approaching wave was larger yet. Which was not altogether a bad thing as it had already broken and dissipated at least some of that overwhelming energy. Turning, I stroked as hard as possible; I was already growing weary and it would require a lot of speed to make this work.

For a moment, only a moment, it seemed that I had done it. Then the turbulence surrounded me, great foam hands swatting me, bending me, pushing me under, yet carrying me toward the beach.

Great, I told myself, I’ll make it in but drown on the way.

When the surf finally tired of playing with me, left me floating in its wake, I had nothing remaining. The beach looked as far away as ever. You’re closer, said the logical part of my mind, but I wasn’t buying it.

Shouldn’t my life flash by about now? I asked. Isn’t that the cliché?

What I felt was—anger. Idiot, my monologue continued, look what you’ve gotten yourself into now! You’re too old for this.

But too young to die. I had to smile at that. Odd time for humor. The next wave was almost upon me.

I was not ready. My lungs ached still for oxygen; I felt I had swallowed gallons of brine. As the engulfing wall of whitewater approached, I took my last deep breath and dove.

Once more through the rinse and spin cycles. Not so bad this time; I avoided being sucked up into the wave but was held under far, far too long. Finally bobbing up again, I needed to clear the thick foam from around me with my hands to catch a breath. And there was the next car in this train.

This time, I was directly in the impact zone. The crest was rising, some monstrous shining executioner’s ax, ready to fall on a solitary swimmer. I could not dive again, I knew. I could not hold my breath long enough. I could not survive.

There was nothing to do but try to body surf again. Perhaps the steepness of this wave would make it easier to catch—but, oh, the wipeout that was sure to follow!

Yet, that didn’t concern me just then. My fear was of being sucked up that mountain of water, being launched into space with the descending curl, and free falling to the trough below as tons of water cascaded upon me.

You wouldn’t come up again, I warned myself. Make this good. I knew I was on the edge of panic.

I will, I promised, with a touch of a smile. Don’t be so dramatic.

Then, taking one step back from that edge, I was stroking as hard as I was able, arms and legs weakened but working with a focused efficiency. I felt the water lift beneath me, my body beginning to slide down that liquid mountain. I was in. I had caught it.

Riding it was another thing altogether. I could still ‘go over the falls,’ end up an all-too-fragile projectile aimed at the ocean floor. Keeping my body rigid, making it into a human surfboard, I attempted to turn to my left, slide away from the power of the breaking wave. The curl would crash down on me eventually, I knew; with luck, much of its force would have subsided.

I felt it catching up, the shadow of the crest curving above me. Momentarily, I sped through a transparent tunnel. Then, cartwheels in the whitewater.

But I was inside the break now. I floated a few seconds, breathing deeply, taking stock. The beach was closer, but still a long swim. I did not know if I could make it; I did not know if I had enough left. Long lines of foam continued to roll toward me, already broken waves. Weakened, they might be, but they were still capable of tossing me about, another bit of flotsam.

Is it worth it? I wondered. Do I even have a chance? I’m tired; I could rest, fall back here and sleep.

Sleep forever. It was something I’d thought of often enough, anyway. Putting an end to things—maybe that was why I came out here on days like this.

Out here. Out here, I left behind my empty existence ashore, the pointless pursuit of happiness. Live or die, life could mean something for a while. Out here, even as I dueled with the ocean, I controlled my destiny.

Each day we have that choice to live or to die. Most don’t think about it, I suppose. Most don’t hold guns to their head and wonder if they will pull the trigger.

And some do.

Slowly, I started stroking toward the shore. Some other time, maybe.

Each wave had to be judged as it came: one I might dive under; the next I’d let push me along a few yards. Between, a bit of tired paddling, treading water for the most part.

Maybe I don’t have a choice after all, I admitted, and that kind of pisses me. I stole another look at the shore. Closer. A little. In fact, I was now over a deeper section of the ocean floor, in from the reef, where many waves did not break at all. I couldn’t body surf here. I’d have to swim.

Stroke by stroke, I deliberately worked toward the beach. I had never been so weary; my arms and legs would move only by conscious command. Left. Right. Left.

It would be pretty stupid to drown when you’re this close. The thought both amused and irritated me. Keep paddling. Right. Left. Right.

Then I was at the inside break, smaller waves dumping on a sandbar. Dazed and drained though I was, I found myself body surfing one into knee-deep water. I waded the last few yards to the beach.

Two boys waited at the water’s edge. One held my surfboard.

“Hey, Shaper, I got your board for you. It’s okay.” Holding the red-and-yellow escapee up for inspection, he continued. “That was pretty bad out there, wasn’t it?”

I agreed that it was.

“We watched you swim a long time.” He nodded in the direction of his friend. “Robby thought we should call 911 or something, but I figured you were gonna be alright.”

“Sure, wasn’t a big deal.” I gave the pair the best smile I could manage. “Thanks for picking up my board.”

I took it from him and walked slowly to my truck.


This was originally written as a short story based on real events in my life. Eventually it was reworked as a chapter in my surf-and-crime novel ‘Shaper.’

Priests

Priests

Father Joe lit up another stogy. He wasn't your typical priest; no, he'd been married and a shopkeeper up north, somewhere. But his wife had died and he had turned, searching, to the church.

I liked his cigar.

The stink of it reminded me of sitting with my grandfather. It made him someone I could talk to, not like the career clergy, the ones who'd been priests inside since the sixth grade.

I should be a priest, I was told, a priest.

Even my unbeliever father thought so. You're too unworldly. The Church will take care of you.

I knew better. I knew long before the other boys my age. Old Father Joe listened and may even have understood, beneath an ancient banyan in the church yard.

He'd never become a member of the priests' club — always an assistant at some small parish or another, where the children loved him and the adults wondered just what the bishop had foisted on them this time.

He rose from the bench beside me to hop-scotch on the sidewalk with girls who could have been his granddaughters if God hadn't played the old switch game with him.

Sometimes, I feel like lighting up a cigar just in memory of Father Joe, let some of that familiar incense rise.

You know, I gave them up a while back.

Stephen Brooke ©2004

appeared in “Retellings” chapbook


The Mooring

The Mooring

a Branford Perry story by Stephen Brooke ©2011


We never did it.

No, not once, even though we ran around together for a couple years. Pam had a long distance boyfriend; he’d show up for the occasional weekend and I’d stay away.

Then he would leave and two lonely people would hook back up, finding friendship in a small town.

The Mooring—that’s where she worked, where we both worked, she as personal assistant to the boss, I as head groundskeeper. A little apartment above the sales office was one of her employment benefits. I learned eventually that she had been Dave’s mistress before I met her; that’s why he had given her the apartment free of rent.

Many an evening I climbed that stair, to hang out, to watch a video or two, to talk about whatever was on her mind. She needed to talk and I was always willing to listen. Looking back, it seems a very strange relationship but we were comfortable with it.

It’s not that I didn’t think about sex; guys do and she was an attractive woman. We just never clicked that way, no chemical reactions in our respective test tubes. The thing with the boss bothered me too, once I heard about it. Dave was a charming guy, a natural salesman, but he treated his wife—the original source of his wealth—like dirt. No, dirt he valued; he could build an apartment house on it.

All things end. The boyfriend had been there that weekend. Stopping by on Sunday afternoon to check some new plantings, I waved when I saw them sitting on her balcony. Oddly, I’d experienced a touch of jealousy; Pam and I might be friends and nothing more but I had something going on in me. I felt protective; I felt possessive. Was this guy good enough for her?

I always came in to work early; Pam would usually be upstairs when I arrived. This Monday, though, she was saying goodbye to her lover. Still in her robe, she leaned in through the window of his car for a farewell kiss. I watched her watch him drive away.

Then she smiled in my direction and motioned me over.

“Look, Bran,” she said, holding out her left hand.

No mistaking what she meant. It was a very large diamond.

“So—” I was at a loss for words; not unusual for me. I recovered. “Congratulations, kid.” I called her kid; she was six or seven years younger than I.

“Jim and I will get married next month,” she bubbled. “I want to do it right here on the grounds. In the gardens.” The Mooring was a high-end resort and had become a popular spot for weddings.

“I’ll make sure the place is perfect.” Then I thought about what this meant. “You’ll be, um, leaving, won’t you?”

She stepped back and gave me one of her sweet little looks. “Yeah, Bran, I’m going to give Dave notice this morning.”

I nodded, not sure what else to say.

“Go get dressed,” I advised her. “My crew is ogling you. Stop by this evening?”

“You’d better! I have a lot to tell you!”

I gave the boys a disapproving look but I couldn’t blame them for watching her walk away.

* * *

“Let’s walk.”

I was willing, though I walked around the area all day. This had once been a live oak forest by the river. Now, cottages stood among the remaining trees, set on a network of winding roads. Dave had done a good job of preserving the natural beauty. He knew what sold.

We strolled through the fading evening light, down toward the river. On a Monday evening there were few guests about. The place was ours.

Pam seemed quiet, uncharacteristically so.

“I’ve never told Jim anything about you. He wouldn’t understand.”

I nodded. “Not surprised. Wouldn’t have been much point in mentioning me, would there?”

We continued a while in silence.

“Where are you going to live?” I asked. We had reached the river. No more walking; it was time to talk.

“Daytona. We’ll stay in Jim’s apartment at first.” She giggled. “But he knows I expect a nice suburban house!”

I laughed along with her. “Going by that rock on your finger, he can afford it,” I observed. “That’s a long way from here.”

She couldn’t help catching the wistful tone of my voice. “I’ll miss you, Bran. It’s not that far, you know, and I’ll come to visit my sister.” Giving me a little sideways look, she added “You ought to give Jeanne a chance.”

She’d bugged me for two years about dating her sister. Hadn’t been above throwing us together on occasion, either.

“She’d always be second best,” I blurted out. “Oh, I didn’t mean that. I don’t know what the hell I meant.”

Pam put her hands on my shoulders and turned me to face her. “She always has been second best and that’s not fair.” She was very serious. “I was the pretty one, the outgoing one. She should be happy, too.” Then a little smile, tinged with something else . Sadness? Concern? I couldn’t quite read it. “And so should you, Bran.”

There were tears coming into my eyes. Pam knew I cried easily; we’d watched enough sad movies together, so I didn’t try to hide it. That’s what I was going to miss, I knew—someone from whom I never had to hide my tears.

And all that went with it.

* * *

How many more times would I climb these stairs? The staircase opened into a hallway between the lobby and Dave’s office in what, from the outside, looked much like another cottage. Rustic Southern was the style here, metal roofs and rough siding: pseudo-cracker, but with modern interiors.

I had keys; however, after hours I always let Pam unlock the doors. This became her home then.

The girl was a slob. I found that both endearing and annoying; I’m very much the neat freak myself. The personality matched the job, I suppose. Orderly flowerbeds, orderly home!

So I knew the place would look much the same as when she and Jim had rolled out of bed that morning. That had never bothered me in the past. Would Jim mind, I wondered; would he care about the clothes lying on the floor, last night’s glasses on the coffee table?

A painting hung above the sofa, one of my own amateur daubings—a landscape, as if I didn’t get enough of that in my job. Pam had seen it and liked it; I presented it to her one day soon after. Over her protests, of course, though she really did like having it. It would end up in some closet in that house in the suburbs, until it was discarded or sold for two bucks at a garage sale. No illusions about that; none at all.

She went to the fridge and got us each a cold Sam Adams. Pam knew well that I appreciated the better stuff; the boyfriend seemed to leave a trash basket full of Bud cans behind.

“Sit.” She patted a spot beside her on the couch, below that old painting. I could see so many flaws in the picture. I wished right then that I could give her a more accomplished work. But that would also end up in the closet. I sat.

I sipped from my bottle. At home it would have gone into a glass.

“Aw, Pam,” I started. My hick accent seemed to come forward at times like this. Pam—and Jim—had that middle-America-come-from-anywhere way of talking but I was a true Florida boy. “I’m gonna miss you.”

“I know. It was bound to happen, Bran.” She chugged half her beer. Pam could drink. “I’ll miss you too. I told you that.”

“But you love Jim.” I looked at the floor a moment, then lifted my head and smiled. “And you know I wish both of you happiness.” I raised my bottle. “Here’s to Jim, the luckiest dentist alive!”

Pam clinked her bottle against mine and we both took a gulp. “Thanks,” she said, “and he’s an orthodontist.”

“Pokes around in people’s mouths, just the same.” He had met Pam when some sort of conference on orthodontics was held at the Mooring. His first night here had been spent in his room; the second one in hers.

“I knew you never liked Jim.” She gave me a mock scowl before laughing. “That’s alright. You two are night and day. Get you another?”

“Sure,” I said, draining my bottle.

* * *

The TV was on, some tabloid show. We sat and pretended to watch it for a few minutes. Pam remained unusually quiet.

I had to say something. I turned sideways on the sofa to face her and asked if she was okay.

“Oh, yeah, Bran. All of a sudden this seems like a lot to sort out. Marriage, moving away, all the rest.”

“Well, you said it. It was bound to happen. I expected you to get hitched again some day.” Pam was long divorced but I knew well that those who marry once marry again, unlike we old bachelors.

“I—” She hesitated. “I sometimes have wondered about you and me.”

All I could do was nod. Hadn’t I done the same?

“Could we have fallen in love?” she asked. “I mean… why didn’t we? Why wasn’t there a spark?”

“Damned if I know. We’ve always been comfortable with each other.” I sat back and polished off the last of my second beer. “Maybe that was it, we turned into a brother-sister act.”

“I want to know. Look at me, Bran.” I turned toward her once again. “Kiss me.”

I wanted to know, as well. How I wanted to know! Our mouths came together, lips on lips. Right then, old Sam Adams spoke up unexpectedly. Yes, I burped in her face.

It completely cracked Pam up. I had to laugh too, despite my total embarrassment. When we stopped, we both knew that the moment had gone. We would never try to kiss again.

We would never find out what might have been, what never would be. Just as well.

* * *

Later, I gave Pam a brotherly hug goodbye. Instead of going to my truck, my feet carried me once more toward the river, through the silent moonlight.

I sat there a while on the dock, watching the flow. Things change, I told myself. Maybe it’s time I moved along as well; it was never the plan to work here forever. Or maybe I will call up Jeanne one of these days.

I slapped at a mosquito. Time to go home.


Stone

Stone

Stephen Brooke ©2021


Each morning Medusa combed her snakes before a brazen mirror. They could be quite unruly, writhing out of place as soon as she thought she had made some order of them.

“Who’ssss going to look at you?” they hissed at her.

“I shall,” was ever her reply, and she went on arranging the serpents. Deep in her soul, she wished there could be another.

But all the men who came here wanted to kill Medusa. Some sought the glory of it, some felt a duty to slay a monster. Some wanted to use her head and its stony gaze for their own purposes. She had a parlor full of them, all turned to statues. Sometimes she rearranged them, from boredom, and placed them in compromising positions.

A very few were handsome and she might let out a sigh when her eyes went to their forms. Mostly the gorgon ignored them. She was too used to their presence. They were but so much clutter now.

And imagination only took one so far.

She was feeding her hair mice one evening when another intruder blundered his way into her cave. Night seemed a favored time for these heroic misadventures; perhaps the warriors felt they could accomplish their deed under the cover of darkness. Medusa lit several braziers until the place was as bright as noon. This man would see her and see her well. For a moment.

Ah, he was using the trick of a well-shined shield to reflect her image, so he would not gaze upon the danger of her eyes. Others had attempted this and ever made a mistake at some point. They might lose her image in the reflection and, without thinking, look about for her. They might be distracted by her other weapons, for Medusa did not slay by sight alone. Let them try to keep their eyes on their shields while she loosed arrows at them!

Here he came. Oh, so comely a fellow, with his lithe body and muscles and very little covering them. He grasped a long leaf-bladed bronze sword and kept his eyes firmly on the round shield.

Then he halted. “Why, you’re beautiful! I expected to glimpse a hideous monster.”

She was glad he had made no comment on her snakes. These writhed in agitation at the moment. “Kill him!” they murmured, and “Petrify him!”

“Hush,” she whispered. “So why do you wish to slay me, mortal man?”

“For the glory!” He chuckled in a slightly embarrassed manner. “That’s what I told everyone. That or ‘because she’s there.’ Really, I thought your head would be useful.”

Medusa nodded. She appreciated honesty. There was much to appreciate about this fellow, she thought, as she looked him up and down and up again. Her gaze lingered around his middle.

“I’d rather you stayed with me a while.” Medusa smiled at the thought.

“So might I,” he admitted. The warrior kept his eyes fixed on his shield. From fear or admiration? she wondered. A little of both would be fine.

“But what would you tell those who expected you to kill me?”

He pondered this question for but a moment. “I’ll just tell them I chopped off your head and, um, lost it while flying over the sea. I came here on a hippogriff, you know.”

“Not the first,” she told him. “Here,” she said, picking up one of her scarves. “Use this as a blindfold and you’ll be in no danger.” She chuckled herself. “Not from my eyes.”

There might have been a moment of mistrust but he took another look at her reflection and acquiesced. “I guess I’ll have to work by touch,” he joked. A little nervously, she felt. That was to be expected but she’d do her best to put an end to any doubts.

“The best way,” she answered. But she was glad she could see him by the ruddy, flickering light of the blazing braziers. She wanted to—no, she should be the polite hostess first. “Are you hungry?”

“Only for you.” That was all the gorgon needed.

She did need to let him sleep eventually. By the dying illumination, Medusa allowed her eyes to feast on the slumbering hero beside her. Her serpents stirred drowsily, before falling back into sleep. She should in a few minutes, but he was so good to look at, so handsome.

And it was so good to have someone with her. Someone who was not made of stone. Long had she yearned for this.

In the morning, he was already awake before her, his hands groping for her. That was what had awakened her, wasn’t it? The snakes hissed a bit in protest.

Medusa slid out of bed, and looked at the long sharp sword and shining shield propped against her wall, just below the fresco Apollo had painted for her. It wasn’t so good but one did not insult a god nor his handiwork—that sort of thing had gotten her into trouble in the first place. She hadn’t always had this snaky head, after all. “Come to me,” she called. He rose and embraced her willingly, avidly. As their lips met, lingered, her hands went to his blindfold and pulled it up.

“Best to be safe,” she told the mirror, sitting down to comb her serpents.

appeared in Lands Far Away 2021


Blindman Bay

Blindman Bay

a Branford Perry story by Stephen Brooke ©2011


It's not like I fell in love with Ruby.

It felt comfortable, though, and I thought I might want to stay a while. Maybe even the rest of my life.

Oh, no, I’m not talking about a woman. Ruby is a town, a river, a way of life. Ruby is a place where a dark swamp-born stream meets the Gulf of Mexico. I did meet a woman there, on the shores of Blindman Bay. She was a woman of the sunset and of the water.

And did I fall in love with her? That would be the easy thing to say, wouldn't it? As with Ruby, it felt comfortable. Need there be more than that? I don't know.

I had come on the restless southern wind, a vagrant vessel seeking port. There had been a time when the frigate bird had charted my course, when the tropical night had breathed its dreams into my soul.

When the magic of a moon mirrored in the Gulf waters no longer seemed enough, when all its spells were broken, I turned my eyes northward. Could rest be found there, where forgotten fishing villages slept in the sun?

Perhaps, for a time.

But the woman—she had been a beauty once, fading as time stripped away every defense, and 'Honey' everyone called her. The name she had once been given did not matter one way or another.

“Every time I try to love,” she told me, “it turns out bad.” Her lost blue eyes looked me up and down and a hungry voice asked how long I would be staying. Who could say?

Who could say how long I might linger there?

Others had come and gone, leaving her with two young kids. That also did not matter one way or another, nor that both of us knew it wouldn't last. Forever's far too long.

“No point in asking why the river brought you to my door,” said she. “Just take what we are given.”

Wanderers and fools that we were, there would come a day we sat and watched the sun set one last time. Who knows what tides we're drifting on? Who knows in what harbors we might find rest?

And it was on the shores of Blindman Bay that I put my arm around her, promising I would stay as long as I was able. On the shores of Blindman Bay, where river runs to sea.